Pictures!

some pictures from our past events:

My role model, Caren!
My pretty darling, Cindy! and her muse
the pageant contestants, our models for the SIM-UOL show

Me laughing my head off. A very unglam moment
Emily, K-ge, Christine and Gordon
Marcus, Elyn's cousin and Elyn
Oliver and Abby singing
The first time we met Clara

Leya is sick. Need some TLC

I'm happy

Then & now

a picture taken of me and persis last year

A recent picture of me and persis

I miss ya, babe. Thanks for being my listening ear.

I just transferred alot of photos from my phone to com. Many photos of me last year. I guess you can see my gradual change.

I really enjoyed today's class and zhenwei & gordon closed well. 初心 - must always remember the reason why I am doing what I am doing, especially when there's setbacks and upsetting news.

Missing alot of people tonight. All females. No I am not lesbian. I just miss them, because I feel that i am doing a lousy job to care for them as my friends.

Leya is strong, Leya will survive.

Missing

I miss the good ol' days. do you?

Read This.. How True

Everybody has a dream.
What's yours?
If you could do anything, what would it be?

Most of us don't achieve great things because we give up, we fall short, we get off track, we settle, or we dream too small. Only two things stand in your way: dreaming it, then doing it.

Have you dared to dream, really dream?

If something is within your apparent reach, it isn't a dream. If it doesn't stretch you, cost you, or involve risk, it isn't a dream. Dreams change you even as they change the world around you.

Maybe you're listening to critical people. Remember the story of Joseph? He dreamed big dreams. God-given dreams. And what was the response of his brothers? They said, "Look, this dreamer is coming! ... let us ... kill him." People who aren't pursuing their own dreams are usually the first to criticise people who are. So, who are you listening to?

Maybe you're afraid to dream too big. You don't want to fail. Nobody does. But 'safe living' leads to regret. Theodore Roosevelt said, 'Far better it is to dare mighty things, to win glorious triumphs, even though checkered by failure, than to rank with those poor spirits who neither enjoy much nor suffer much because they live in the gray twilight that knows neither victory nor defeat'. What's the worst thing that could happen if you pursue your dream and don't achieve it? You could end up where you are now. And what's the best thing that could happen? You could find yourself in new territory, enjoying new blessings, living the life God meant for you to live!

[http://www.thewordfortoday.com.au]

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Taken from ReAnne's blog

*Poof*

Sorry for my entries have been rather lost. Guess I'm just in the phase of feeling lost and empty. Lost the drive and zest I had. Was it the news? or just myself? I don't know anymore.

Been attempting to contact ghosts of my past. That's probably a mistake. I decided to keep the present and ignore the past. I just wanna look forward, stay focused and achieve something for goodness sake. Now I am finally seeing some results, but why does it seem like I am throwing in the towel for good?

Anyway things to do on a free Friday
- Wake up late
- Have dinner with my mum (impossible since I got class, maybe lunch)
- Bake cookies
- Watch TW drama
- Go Amway office
- Have a haircut
- Laze around
- Visit Caren's shop for some shoes
- Trying to save $

I don't think I have time to do all >.<

Need a break + A bit of optimism

Friday me on leave! YEAH! finally!!!

A regular blog stalker I am, I was reading Claudia's past blog. Many of the things she wrote about before were exactly my thoughts and views. Many times we find ourselves in a rut, confused and lost. Actually someone out there probably feel the same way as us. When you find this person, it's like finding a kindred spirit. I guess what I am trying to say is that you are not alone. Someone out there is experiencing the same emotions and going through the same things. Likely this person is your friend too.

Telling others my problems is my form of releasing those pent up anger. Once it is out of my system it is out of my mind too. I don't like to hold things in. Poor Emily and Rion, always have to listen to my whining and ranting. Hee.

Hana is one of the best things that ever happened to me. Knowing Emily and Rion feels like a blessing and having Sarah and Claudia fighting for the same future as me gives me hope and strength. *Blessed*

It's a beautiful and wonderful Monday...

I am determined to not let another sucky morning bus ride ruin my Monday! But I'm really so tired. -_-

Coffee Prince

This korean show definitely have the makings of a must watch one after Goong!

Short Synopsis: "With a foolish mother and the need to look after her younger sister, “pretty boy” Go Eun Chan has to give up her feminine image to help support the family with multiple jobs. Because of her previous experience with Tae Kwon Do, Eun Chan has quite the bold and opinionated personality. Choi Han Kyul seems to know women well and thinks of himself as a great guy.

After accidentally being mistaken for a man by Han Kyul’s cousin, Choi Han Seong, she starts working at Coffee Prince, and falls in love with the hot-tempered owner Choi Han Kyul. Han Kyul hires Eun Chan to avoid an arranged marrage by pretending to be romantically linked to a “gay” Eun Chan. But Choi Han Kyul slowly starts to develop feelings for her, but still doesn’t believe in love. Eun Chan also starts to have feelings for Han Kyul but can’t confess that she’s a woman, Han Kyul, continues thinking that the agonized Go Eun Chan is a man. Choi Han Kyul thinks he’s experiencing feelings of homosexuality towards her, and gets heartsick. This side of him was drawn in a risky but fun way.

The part when he discovers that Go Eun Chan is a woman is shown in an undemanding way, and the story doesn’t concentrate on just these two people, but also on the other people who frequent Coffee Prince. These people are shown one by one in a natural way, and since the story isn’t just about romance but about the natural conflicts of all the characters." - taken from coffee-prince.com

It's super nice loh!!! especially its latest episode 5 and 6. Starring Yoon Eun Hye who is the main female lead from Goong, she totally transformed into this little androgynous boy/girl character. And the romance between the actors are so natural and heartwarming and hilarious all at the same time. The setting of this drama is so nice, i.e the cafe, their houses. Still showing in Korea, there're 16 episodes altogether. I'm sure this show will have many followers once start showing in places like TW, Singapore.

Getting my pay this week! finally! I wanna get a new Handphone and this is the one, after it was highly recommended by Caren:

I know of at least 3 people who is using this phone. Guess it must be a really good and cheap one as it is only $68 bucks after I trade in my current phone and upgrade my phone plan. Provided they'll accept my damaged 6100 >.<

This is meant to be a superficial, my happy post. Enough upsetting news from last week. I just wanna be happy.

Friendship

Friendship is about being there for our friends when they need us. It's about having integrity that you mean what you say. and Your actions JUSTIFY your promises.

I am never one who scheme her way through to get what she wants. I believe good friends are more important than $ or love. I am who I am. I may be straightforward, tactless, carry my jokes too far, but I never mean any menace or discord. I am still striving to improve my character flaws too.

A true test of friendship is when you are broke or jobless, is there someone to help you to turn the situation around? I don't mean giving money, because my mum taught me it is bad to borrow $. And teaching someone to fish beats giving the person fish.

Is there a friend who tells you in your face that you need to improve and they will be there to help you along the way to help you become better?

Is there a friendship which can withstand doubts, rumours, gossip?

Can you be a friend who don't backstab?

That is all I ask from.

I saw the bond so strong between 2 friends last night. It comes from years of understanding, tolerance and being frank with each other. I know we should not judge a book by its cover. But I am simple. I choose to frank and forthright. Don't take advantage of that.

Guy or Girl?

I ripped this picture from a friend. Caption: Boys who cosplay. O.o???

A random post on my wishlist

I want...

1) Prada clutch!

2) My favourite haute couture brand - Dior handbag!

3) An IPod Video for me to watch dramas on the go!

4) A pretty pretty cybershot camera

5) An all-paid-for trip to Japan!

6) and eat tempura paid by Dion in Japan!!!

Change

I was typing a rather whiny blog entry when I stopped myself. This blog is not the same as my past. I am beyond whiny or blindly in love. This blog is meant to share deep thoughts, reflections and happy things. And I have to say I am happy 80% of the time now. Just that I let minor things get to me too easily.

I have set myself certain targets to fulfill and immediate changes to be made. Determined to catch myself before I commit the same bad habit again. That's the thing about habits, to break them you have to catch yourself the minute just before you commit it. It is tough but I will do it. Because growing up is about changes and realizing the meaning behind each change.

Caren's change is phenomenal and we all know it and see it. It did not take her 21 days, 2 weeks or few months. It took her years to keep it constant. I truly admire this little great lady alot and I want to be like her to keep changing for the better. And someday in the near future, she will join the league of the wonderful ladies of the class like Faith and Dolly, as will I.

Losing my soul

Selling dust cleaner = Losing my soul?

OMG

I won't give up. Moving on.

Talking to Bryan about certain issues really make my blood boils. No, not angry at him. Just the issues. Poor people don't deserve to stay poor. But they shouldn't expect handouts either. Have hands, go work. No $, work. Don't borrow, steal or whine. We have no right to. We are poor. Get it? Make a difference. Go earn money. Find another job, work 3 jobs. Poor people no right to complain. Applies to me.

Rich people, let them be rich. Rich people not equals good people. Just like people who are first in class are not clever people. Just means they have better memory. Be a good person who have the ability to give. Dont be a stingy poor person. Dont lose yourself in the mindless chase for more money. I know I am not losing my soul, why wont someone who lose her soul be so poor? hehe

If selling dust cleaners is only way to go, won't you sell dust cleaners too?

Persis

I've known Persis since 17 and today I realized we have known each other for more than 5 years. time really flies, especially after we have started working.

Those days in Poly with Persis were one of my most precious memories. Since 1st year, we've been doing many projects together and each time we will argue and quarrel like nobody's business during those discussions. From that project on stress in Yr1 to our Yr3 ndp projects, i have lost count of all those times we have argued.. But at the end of each project we will still be friends.

She was there for me when I broke up with my ex-boyfriends and I remembered we had such a wild time clubbing then. come to think of it, we were really there for each other then because we see each other almost every other day. Then after graduation, we still managed to work in the same company for a short while, playing msn games all the time and having cheap lunches together. Those were the days...

Ever since she started her university studies, she have become busier but stronger as well. Having to balance a full time job, a demanding degree and a boyfriend, I would think she has done a very good job in prioritising. Though we hardly meet up with each other since then, I could really feel her support for me in every decision.

Babe, hope you will grown even more stronger in Oz. Will miss you so very much. I really hope you can top your class and graduate with terrific results because that is what you deserve. Have no doubt in yourself because we have 100% confidence that you can settle down very well in Perth. Stay true to your principles and belief, and I believe you will become a even better person when you come back! I'll definitely be slimmer, prettier, successful and on my way to achieving my dream the next time you see me too!

Take care...

Reminder

不能有企图地对待他人，而是真正有耐心地关心与关怀别人。

Staying on the right track

I've wasted 10 days.

Being confused and lazy and probably complacent. Worrying things over my control, not keeping a tighter rein on my finances.

And yesterday class was like a lightbulb lighting off in my head. "How to qualify for overseas trip next year?" It is really the WANT. You can imagine in your head that you want something very very much, but if your actions does not justify your WANT, it is just tormenting and frustrating for your brain.

Been reflecting the differences between both. Are they all that different? Both are investments of different kind, but for common purpose. One is a youth paradise, a shoutout to the world to tell them we have something accomplished. The other a place to learn from people whose success are justified and I see many people who really want it so badly that I'm sure there will be an alarming number to Alaska this year.

But I also see around me people who are not improving and drifting away. And I feel very sad. Because it is not they don't know or don't understand. It is because they don't believe. As Dr Jack puts it - 怀疑是很辛苦的 - like a suspicious wife keep checking on an innocent husband, it is tough on both side. Since we decided that this is the only way, shouldn't we be more proactive?

As he put it - "Confused no more. What Dr Jack says is suppose to guide, not confuse. Think about it, isn't what they teach, we also practice? Just that we're not consistent enough. It's not the teaching, it is us."

所以我不再怀疑了。这是我相信我唯一能成功的方法，只有拼一切明年一定要出国，证明我自己一定可以做到！

My challenge won't be defeating anyone from either side. My challenge and struggle is to make that small difference each day to contribute to my eventual success.

And I've learnt enough to not create problems. Now it's time to learn how to solve my own problems.

Family, Friends and The Earth

I love my family and friends and my Earth

My weekend can be considered well-spent with those I love. It was clubbing at Bar None with Sarah and Shumin on Saturday (it was Pam's birthday party and I brought those two party animals along for some fun)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAM! (though I dunno if you read this)

Was intending to head to New Asia Bar / MOS after the party, but we were having too much fun drinking, dancing and socialising with Pam's friends that we stayed at Bar None and Living Room until 4am. Was introduced to Edwin Yeo, a used to be journalist. Apparently he used to gave us a lecture when I was still at CMM, but i completely can't recall that lecture at all. Anyway he is now running a PR company and I cheekily asked about whether there was any job offering.

And things start rolling out that probably PR is not the way for me as I do not have much experience in the media industry. Been in the hospitality industry since graduation probably have not been a very smart move for me. But I have not looked back since. Choice been made and I am sticking by it. Anyway work is just as transition period. But choosing a relevant job is important. So morale of the story: DO NOT COMPROMISE.

After such a tiring night, I only woke up at ard 2 / 3 pm and watch Live Earth. And I was so lucky to catch Madonna. Love her man, she is so damn cool. Really an icon over the eras. Anyway I was really inspired by all the artistes' performances, the commercials and the short films. Feel that the whole publicity of this event done by Ch5 is really good, however publicity in newspapers are probably lacking by alot. This event super reminded of my 1st job after graduation which is public relations for an non-existent event - Listen Live. So sad my event never took off in Singapore but so happy that the concept has taken its life in Live Earth. I really feel that more of such events should be organized to gather the world together for a common cause. Go to liveearth.org to find out more and do your bit to save our dying earth. Oh ya, and switch off that light you are not using.

Last night was truly the highlight of my week, because I finally spent time with my family! We had a crab zhi char dinner at Punggol and I really feel very blessed to have the chance to have dinner with my family. Can't remember when was the last time I actually sat down with them to eat a meal together. Must be CNY... so sad right? We bought durians and walked home from Punggol with it and talked alot. I finally did that long overdue facial for my mum and sister too! I kept really quiet when my parents was saying we should be doing this every weekend. I really wish I can, but if I got more impt priorities I've gotta go fulfill those first before I can be with my parents 24/7. Ever since I have joined Amway, I really really really wished my parents are fighting on the same line as me, so that it won't be so tough and we can go overseas together within the next 2 years too. I wish for that day to come real soon!

Lighter moments of life

VIP - Very Important Pioneers of Hana
Len's Mummy and Me (she is super friendly and adorable)
Me and Elyn (I've grown to love this girl :D)
Me and Claudia (she is really becoming prettier)
Some more of us

Claudia, me and Sarah

Driven

If you ever seen my past entry, there was an entry on envy. Damn, the envy bug never dies. It creates a space of dissatisfaction with my own life and I want more.

What drives you? For me it's the want for better things in my life, for my family and my friends. I want to spend $ without looking at price tag. I want my parents to stop working and enjoy life. I want my brother and sister to pursue their dreams. I want to be generous to all my friends. I want a better quality of life. I want more!

In comparison, many of my peers are enjoying life now by partying all night, dining at places I nv even heard before, travelling to places like new york, LA, Europe, going to universities locally and overseas and buying the Pradas, Guccis, LVs etc. I really envy their lifestyles and I can't keep up with them. I start to ponder about my family's and my financial status and realized -Somethings in life are just unfair, so why bother comparing? Move on, make a difference to our futures by working hard NOW is what matters. The sooner we succeed, the more we get to enjoy life. The more we indulge in self pity, the more we will find ourselves stuck in the rut.

Recently someone just shared with me. There are 2 kinds of friends in this world. The first kind are those you look for to share your problems with and you can count on them to be responsible, reliable to go all the way to help you. And the second kind are those you look for when you want to have fun. I don't know which kind of friends you have more. But I'm very glad and proud to say I have more of the 1st kind. My whole Hana team is the 1st kind and interestingly I still look for them when I wanna have fun. The leaders like Len, Caren, Rion, Janet and Cindy really sacrifice alot of their time and effort to try to make a difference to our lives. And the team can't do without anyone of us. Like the funny dudes - Desmond, Gordon, Zhenwei, Oliver, Ivan. The young pretty lasses - Angela, Loreen, Thanet. The hardworking and talented (sometimes have to stand in as nannies) - Emily, Hui Er, Elyn, and Marc. With the team constantly growing with new blood - like Sarah, Claudia, Alethea, even Anita and Clara, I really do believe our futures have some hope.

Now with the belief, it is time to make the difference. The race to the finish line has begun and we can't lose to those who started the race later than us.

Moving forward

If I tell you that you are going to fall, will you believe me?

Ever had that feeling that you know what is going happen to that person if they do certain things, but they went ahead to do it or not do it. (sounds complicated? asked me in person) I've seen too much of such things happen. I really feel like saying 'I told you so', but always stop myself. Because I also make the same mistakes of heeding good advice. Good advice is hard to hear, swallow and accept.

Being obedient 听话 is not conforming to rules, not having a mind of our own. but it is a process of minimising our setbacks by learning from mistakes of others. You'll be surprised how many people have walked down the same path you are walking now and made certain mistakes that they wished they have known earlier.

How to be constantly improving? Learning from one's mistakes ain't good enough, it is about learning from others' mistakes too and catching yourself in the moment when the decision is a wrong one. It is tough, because it takes a simple person to do so. And human beings are a complicated bunch. We like to look at the problems, rather than look for the solutions. So stop whining and grow up.

Don't make the same mistakes I made. It will take you further from the things you want.

Focus, Leya. Focus

Pretty Angela

This young girl has long legs, cute smile and sweet personality. Look nothing like her age, except with jet black hair and short fringe, and she is really mature beyond her age because of the things she has gone through. Still a child at heart most of the time, but always offer me her most truest and most sincere encouragement and opinions. So glad to have known you under such unusual circumstances. Your presence in my life definitely added more rainbows, butterflies to a happier Leya now. *hugs babe!*

Right or left brain person?

First, identify yourself as right or left brainperson:

1. Hold your hands together, as if you were praying.
Look at your hands. If you see
Left thumb is below the right thumb ---> left brain
Right thumb is below the left thumb ---> right brian

2. Fold your arms in front of you (as if you are angry)
Right arm above left arm ---> left brain
Left arm above right arm ---> right brain

Based on 1+2 (order important), below is the interpretation of your personality:

Right-Left
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Considerate, traditional, indirect type
can instinctly read other's emotion, and respond friendly by natures. Although not very into taking intiatives in moving forward, but this person will always take a step back in supporting others. Stable personality and considerate, give others a being protected feeling. But the weakness is they cannot say no; regardless how unwilling they are, they will take care of others.

Right-Right
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Loves challenges type
Straightfoward. Once they decided on one thing, will take action right away. Very curious, and love challenges. Dare to face dangers without thinking through (sometimes foolishly).
Their weakness is they dont listen to others, will filter in only what whey want to hear in a conversation, and very subjective. However, because of their straightforward attitude, they tend to be fairly popular.

Left-Left
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Dedicated, cold, perfectionist
Very logical in all aspects. The only way to defeat (or win over) him/her is through reasons. Has a lot of prides, and feeling strongly about doing the right thing. If they are your friends, they are very trustworthy. However, if they are your opponets, they will be very tough to deal with.
Because they can be very "anal" as a perfectionist, they usually leave a bad impression of being hard to deal with when first met.

Left-Right
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Likes to take care of others, leader type Has a cool and keen observation ability to see through situations, yet still can be considerate In others needs. Because of their cool and calm nature, and strong sense of responsibility, they tend to become head of a group.
Popular among people. However, they may not be able to help themselves in meddling because they want to take care of others too much. Very concerned about how others view them, and always on alert.
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So which one you are?

I'm right right. very true, hehehe.

Experience counts

I suddenly had a revelation after eating the awful soba noodles I was trying to make for myself for lunch. I am really not good at cooking. Neither am I that good in facial or makeup yet. Neither do I exercise or play any sports. That's probably when I have little confidence in doing any of these.

Why are we not confident in things we are not good at? Is it because we are incapable of learning how to do those things or simply we just don't do it enough? I personally know the reason why I can't cook. Because I have not failed enough to know I can cook. I don't do it often enough, haven't burn enough food to deem myself as a bad cook. Maybe there's no such thing as a bad cook, just a lazy cook with lil experience.

Same things apply to being a makeup instructor. Not the certification she graduated with, nor how well-spoken she is. It is how much faces she have done makeup for, how many people she have shared her knowledge with to deem whether or not she is an experience instructor who knows what she is doing.

Pity we're all trapped in this paper-chasing world where only qualifications, certification counts. People look at those, before they look at you and ask about your experiences. End of the day I feel it is through having experiences, both bad and good ones, we learn and grow. Just studying for the sake of studying is just a waste of time

Party time

Me and Xueyin


The million dollar sales team (hee)
Oliver and the 17-year-olds
Desmond, Cindy, Gordon and Thanet
Janet, Sarah, Desmond, Me and Kathleen

The birthday boys

It was my Lao-da, Yannwei's and Desmond's birthday last weekend, and once again we were at Boulevard. Great chill out place with really nice decor.

Many of our friends were there to give these 2 birthday boys their blessings. Once again Happy Birthday!!!