p.s I only like the dress, not the anorexic model
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Devil Wears Prada
p.s I only like the dress, not the anorexic model
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
It's over
This show is really unlike most korean dramas where it is either too sad, or too goofy. Quite confident it's going to be an even greater hit than Goong. Yoon Eun Hye the female actress acted well for her role I feel. Really very tomboyish yet endearing. And the male lead Gong Yoo is to die for, cool personality with childish antics. And Mr Soulful voice and his so cute dog!
I know I am just rambling nonsense here but this series is a super must watch, feel good show. Optimistic and I love the music and the setting of Coffee Prince. I want to set up a cafe just like Coffee Prince, complete with Baristas, waffles and cute male waiters! whahaha
To read about Coffee Prince, you can visit http://www.dramabeans.com/ for episode summaries or www.imoovee.com to watch the show.
Superb show! Must watch!!!
So cute!
Monday, August 27, 2007
What truly matters
A lot of strong emotions for wanting to make a difference, to succeed.
I don't want to repeat another year. I don't want to waste time. I want to reach the finish line. I don't want to be poor anymore. I don't want to be labelled a failure. I don't want to be confused.
I will only listen to one more person from now on. Filter = Only listen to the good stuff.
I will only learn more and do more. Accumulate experiences.
I have so many post its around the house and office to remind me of my goal. Why I am doing what I am doing. Hee, I need this reminders, so I dun lose focus again.
What matters are my family and the people I have promise to fulfill their dreams.
Sunday, August 26, 2007
Gratitude
This is for you who has assume the 'Daddy' and 'mummy' position in my Amway. Thank you for all the time when you have to put up with my lousy attitude and patience to teach and encourage me all the time.
This is for you who brought me to my first class, sat on the same train ride home with me and send me home so many times. Thanks for listening to my ranting. I like listening to your views, because you always have so much to share.
This is for you who believe in me to be my working partner. I can't describe how blessed I am to have you as my friend and I believe we can definitely achieve our dream of a Hana with Coffee Prince
This is for you who gave me the chance to know this group. I don't know how to not feel bitter towards you. But letting go, I believe I can be happier
This is for you who have been with me since Poly days, lending me your pool, forgiving me over those trivial quarrels over projects. I feel truly blessed that you believe so much in me and is still here for me despite the distance. I can't describe how much your encouragement means to me. I just miss you alot and hope I can be your listening ear just like you have been mine.
This is for you whom is one my best clubbing buddies, and who never give up trying to influence me to take up pole dancing. Haha. You are one complex girl to understand, but I like challenges.
This is for you who has such fabulous fashion taste, and my role model. I love your shops, I love your personality and I hope to become a strong independent girl like you. (not in a stalker way)
This is for you who is my 'nai pa', who always chided me to save money, who helps me to save money and always have stories to encourage me. I do think you are a great leader and a very giving person.
This is for you who always wait for me to come home at night, cook me soups, help me with my laundry, clean my room and sacrifice so much for me for the past 22 years. I want to go travel around the world with you with my own money. I want to give you a better life.
This is for you who sleeps on the same bed as me, download shows for me and is strangely the person I know the least. I really wish i can spend more time and money with you, cause I am really impressed by this lil sis of mine. She is truly a talent, though I dont think she realizes it.
This is for you who were not mentioned above. Not that you are not important, just that you are such an important person to me, I'm at loss of words how to show my gratitude
Saturday, August 25, 2007
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Re-evaluation
Being tired means I somehow lost the goal and purpose for the things I do. I still want to continue what I'm doing. I just don't want to waste my last 7 mths of doing the right stuff. Now what exactly have I done right?
I'm thankful for these extra time I have this week to go back home right after work. I really need it. To think through my actions and the lessons taught to me. It's a trance period. Bear with the transition.
If this period tells me anything, I really rank pretty low in all departments. Be it Family, Friends, Dating Scene / Love, or Work.
Family: As much as I want to spend more time with my sis to know her better, it just not working out because when i'm home, she is tired. When she's free, I'm super busy -_- so much for sleeping on the same bed
Friends: Some people in the past who made me smile, now makes me smile again. Like seeing Henry at GPP yesterday, hearing about Mr Ong (my driving instructor) from Pam, and Vernon. I wanna meet these people again and stay in contact with them!
Dating Scene: Non existent. Am I being a cold-blooded girl or being left on the shelf?
Work / Business: Work is.. well work. More responsibility and free Saturdays (I like!) Business is on restart mode. Leya is restarting.
Argh, I want and need so many things! (who doesn't)
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
Everything negative
Do you ever feel like it's easier to give up than carrying on?
Do you ever want to scream at someone / punch something?
Do you get that feeling of falling sick badly when your body is lethargic, the mind is half asleep, your throat is like sandpaper, your inside of your ear itch like hell and mucus keep coming out of your nose?
It's easier to go home to sleep than do things we are suppose to do
It's easier to be ordinary
It's easier to be forgotten
This is just an awfully random blog entry.
I am looking forward to my pay, because I really need more shoes and skinnies and dresses (ok the last one I dont really need. I just want) But crap, got Genting to pay for this month.
Saturday, August 18, 2007
Fatigue
Haven't had this feeling for so long. the feeling of unity. I think i still got many areas to improve like my makeup and hair skills, my confidence, my communication skills and the way I manage my emotions and matters. Many things to improve. But I like what I saw today.
Now have to go to bed soon. Got to wake up at 630 am to look 'sexy' hahahaha. more on that as well...
Busy busy schedule. But I like being busy, so just bring it on!
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Ooooo
OMG, Caren's new shop - CandyPlush's shoes are so nice. Especially the black ones with ribbons at the back (I'm a sucker for pointy heels and ribbony shoes) I like my shoes in black or white because they are easy to match. But if I want to make a statement, I will get red and hot pink shoes. Now if only i can afford the shoes.
I like Vanessa Hudgen's clothes in her MV "Come Back to me" because they're so suitable to go clubbing! I like!!! see http://www.mtv.com/overdrive/?artist=2446077&vid=109988 for the MV.
Vanessa Hudgens
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
机会与条件 Chances & qualifications
How many chances in life do we have in order to make a difference? Will we be qualified for it?
I was once offered a scholarship to go UWA to study commerce. It's a year of scholarship for a 2-year or 3-year course I think. Meaning I still have to pay for accomodation and one more year of school fees. There's also certain criteria to be eligible for that scholarship, to maintain grades good enough to deserve the scholarship during my course of study. If my grades fall, I will have to pay the school fees myself. Because of financial issues and my parents' objections of me going overseas, I did not take up the scholarship
Since graduation, I have changed jobs 4 times and this is my 5th job. Yeah, once I job hop, i usually get better pay. But it wasn't easy for me to get a job, much less a job that I like and pays. I was not fired from my 1st job, but because the project was abandoned, I lost my job overnight, without warning. Suddenly I had to find a job. But I was complacent then. I waited until my ex to enlist (which is a month later) before starting to actively find a job. It took me abt 2 weeks before I find a job. And I was sending out at least 20 resumes each day, but only 4 companies called me for interview. Luckily I was offered another temporary position by a job agency to tide me over then (because I was desperate and money was running super low)
2nd job didn't go so well. Waited to be offered a perm position but due to miscomm, I moved on after I finish my contract with the company. This time I was smarter. With my previous experience of job hunt, I pestered my job agency to get me interviews and I sent my resume thru TP career portal (by then, the poly batch after me was graduating, thus the career fairs all started). I was pretty scared then. I was competing with more pple, not just my batch but a new batch of graduates, who can do the same things as me, maybe less pay. Luckily my grades impressed the HR of TMS and I land myself at TMS, where my colleagues are all university graduates.
From all these job-finding, I realize that qualifications is really important. It opens more doors for you, give u the opportunity to get better pay. I heard (dunno how true this is) in government sector, your salary depends on your qualifications. If you're a degree holder doing the same job as a diploma holder, you will get higher salary.
Meaning, if you want a better chance in life, you need to possess better qualifications right?
Fair or unfair? Fair for those with fantastic academic results, unfair for those who do not have those qualifications. Thus those without academic qualifications look into other areas of expertise, like entrepreneurship or creative industries.
But even with a degree, does not guarantee you a good job. You realize as compared to decades ago when there was only 1 uni (NUS), it was difficult to get a degree then, because supply is less than demand. However now, there's NUS, NTU, SMU, SIM (with so many other university within it), MIS, MDIS, etc etc. Any kind of degree from any universities around the world (heard of wollogong?). Number of degree holders have increased, in addition we have new immigrants from China, India, Indonesia, Vietnam etc. The workforce is over populated with talents. Is there enough jobs in Singapore?
In places like Japan, China or India, almost everyone is a graduate. Even the telephone operator. Will Singapore come to such a state? Very likely. We have heard of graduates being hawker (though i think that's by choice at this stage, not because no choice) or as taxi drivers. Are you scared? I'm very scared. Yeah, I can gain experience as I work, but when it comes to choosing a new graduate as compared to me, a poor diploma holder, I think the young graduate wins hands down, because better qualifications, cheaper labour.
Soon, a new wave of graduates are graduating next year, fighting for the same rice bowl that we have now. Before the IRs open, I don't think there will be enough jobs for all of us. Plus the technology advances, certain jobs will become obsolete (think mama shops? how long will they survive before 7-11 takes over?). And if you have notice, every decade has its economic recession (1988, 1997). Saw Sat's papers and stocks are plummeting. Got to know a young businessman on sat (only 24yr old) and he is predicting there will be an economic recession next year (or rather he hope there is because he wants to make a quick buck by selling his company)
This feels like a Physical Geography paper, but I'm just penning down my views.
My point is not to run out and get a degree now, at least that is not my priority now. Getting a degree is only one form of qualification. It is not the only one (although most singaporeans will think that way). Being able think, behave and operate like a businessman / leader is more important. Skills of being a leader / businessman is not taught in school. There's no textbook to running a business or being a leader (although many self help books claim that. Remember An idiot's guide to entrepreneurship?) It is a misconception that one needs to have alot of capital to own a business. Hello, heard of online business? Zero overheads. That's only one of the many forms of business. Franchising is big business, alot of $ pump into it, but definitely a winning formula (thus the Starbucks and Macdonalds in the world) But how many possess the criteria (and $) to own a franchise?
What I am trying to say it is not what business you do that makes you a leader or a businessman. It is through experience and good habits that cultivate one. I notice a trend from all the successful people I know (meaning people who have their own business and raking in the cash). They are very disciplined, knows how to control their emotions, always a back-up plan, take the shit for a very long time before the cash starts rolling in (could take years). It helps to start the take-the-shit process early. Because it only mean we will succeed early, enjoy more.
So have you started yet? To think about your future? To take the shit? To have backup plan?
Monday, August 13, 2007
Reminiscence
Saturday mornings when I was on my way to work, reminds me of those days when I had choir every Saturday mornings where I will take a similar empty bus rides to school from Tampines to Katong. I love the morning walks between 8 - 9pm to school from the bus stop. Love the morning breeze and sunny rays. Everything was easy.
I miss the sec sch tu-tu days where I had my nutella and cheese bfast with Astri, when I wait for her at her bus-stop before we walked to sch together. Then, jin, me, her, weijing and loy love going Parkway to slack, talk conk and visit the library. Sec 2 was my happiest sec sch days. Everything going well, and the friends i made then are still friends with me. My 1st taste of what friends for life means.
I enjoy those afternoons after poly sch days where I got nothing to do, but slack with my friends like Bryan, Yanling, Tash at the nearby Mac. Or tuition at my student's place which is near the stadium and my current workplace. My busy bee days started since then.
Now in retrospect my life is in bits and pieces. Pri Sch, Sec Sch, Poly, Work at Balestier Area with ZhiCheng and Persis, Work in Bishan Area at Bosch, Work at Orchard at Meritus, work at City Hall at RTP, Work now back in Tampines. I am in a place I never planned for myself. At 9, I planned to go Special Stream. At 12, I wanted to go SAP school. At 14, i wanted to be 1st. At 16, i wanted to go Poly to take Hospitality. At 17, i wanted to be 1st again. at 19, I wanted to go Uni. Everything happened not as planned. I ended up in Express stream in SAP school, I got 2nd instead of 1st (both sec 2 and Yr 1 to 3 in poly) I didn't take Hospi, I went CMM. I graduated and went straight into workforce. I went into Hotel industry when I did not find any media or marketing jobs i liked (wanted to go marcom in Hotel, so went into Sales 1st) Ended up now in a company that specialises in software for Hotels. Strange twist of fate. Not within my control.
Now I've even started a business with my friends. And I turn around and realize most of my peers are doing the same or studying uni or just stepped into workforce after graduating from uni. I don't regret the decisions I made. Because those seems to be right at that point in life. Except I want more now. A life I can only dream before. Just means I have to work harder. Time will tell
Sunday, August 12, 2007
Saturday, August 11, 2007
Word of advice
dat advice's expiry date is like up to when u're 29... then u can just take any dick dat comes by"
HAHAHAHAHAAHAHA
id.i.o.syn.cra.sy
A structural or behavioral characteristic peculiar to an individual or group.
A physiological or temperamental peculiarity.
An unusual individual reaction to food or a drug.
I checked the thesaurus. This word don't actually mean habit but an oddity.
Oddity, something odd.
Isn't it odd I'm always late for work every Saturday? I spend the 1st 2 hours of my office time doing random personal stuff like Friendster, blogging, reading others' blogs, online shopping etc. I actually got quite a bit of things to follow up on work, but I'm simply too lazy to start on it 'cause no one is chasing me.
Isn't it odd to be perceived as strong and having alot of drive? When I am feeling just as lonely and empty and lost inside. I'm also searching for something, be it love, money or companionship.
Isn't it odd that I am at least 10 times richer than my poly days yet I can be living off one dollar coins by the 10th of each month now?
I have certain phases to me. Sometimes I just want to put 200% in my work, ignoring friendship or boyfriends. Sometimes I'm just in this phase 'I want a boyfriend' and I will start keeping contact with my ex-es and keep a lookout for man. Sometimes I just want to be everyone of my friends' listening ear Or that good girl who actually spare a thought for her family.
Odd. Idiosyncrasy. A characteristic peculiar to myself?
Person A told me, to change a habit, you must catch yourself just before you do it. So you are aware of the things you are doing, and will change for the better. Person B told me, replace your habit with another, gradually you will quit one habit for another one.
I agree with both really.
Alot of bad habits to change... Like procrastinating, lack of confidence, lack of planning and thinking ahead. I'm still far from success. I'm sick of envying, sick of being poor, sick of being undermined, sick of being aimless.
Focus Leya. Focus.
Friday, August 10, 2007
Life of Luxury & Class
Tuesday was a happy dinner with Mr Yim. I miss Pine Court's food! Pine Court is a chinese restaurant from my previous workplace Meritus Mandarin and the cantonese cuisine is so nice there. It's like a fusion cooking, chinese food laid out in Western food manner. The soups there is great, Peking duck is delicious and the lobster so fresh and yummy! Heard there's going to be some major renovation to the place soon. I will miss the food there even more.
Been thinking of getting a credit card. For fun, for show, for face. Haha, i'm so superficial but at least i admit it. It's really a cheapskate credit card from Citibank - Citi Clear Card- cause it's meant for tertiary students with credit limit of only $500. But what do I do with a credit card? Financially wise I am not very sound too. Should I or shouldn't I? Suggestions PLEASE!
Think the marketing has been done very well for this card. Every young person who is 22 and below in university has this on their blogs.
Thinking of taking up pole dancing. For the heck of it. I need exercise and pole dancing is one strange 'sport' or 'exercise' I've never thought of taking it up until Sarah and Mr Yim are constantly persuading me. Better learn it before it becomes the norm like Salsa or Yoga right? Now Salsa and yoga are so common.
They are having a promo now for their classes. Only 150 instead of the usual 210. If I get one more person to join with me, it's 20% off which is only 120. Any takers?
I wonder if we will see through the things we wanna do, like go swimming with Janet (it'll be so cool to see her in bikini, I've got just the sexy 2 piece in my wardrobe which I have not wore) and dinner at Yannwei's place (I'm seriously just dying to try Gordon's prawns and YW's fish)
Hungry
C*R*A*P
Tue very happy
Wed - Thu very unhappy
My mood swings
mistake made. Guilt eaten me from inside. Have to stop the virus from spreading.
I remembered Johnny once told me friendships (esp btw girls) are superficial. Used to argue with him over that, but now... I don't know wat to think
This is truly crap
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
Choices
I may actually write the episodes synopses of this show soon! it is so good.
In life, we always face many choices. We try to make the right one, we dunno what is the right one. We delay our decision making, hoping by delaying we can eventually arrive to an answer. Well delay tactics don't always work. Not making a decision sometimes make things worse. So what?
Someone once shared with me, the difficult part of decision making is not choosing the right decision to make. But it is the action of making a decision. Some decisions in life, once made can never turn back. But things could be worse if we don't make a decision. We end up losing more.
I would say give your decision a serious thought. Once you have decided, don't look back. You can survive the consequences, good or bad.
*Yesterday I had alot of fun doing makeup for the pageant photoshoot. Don't know why, maybe because it has been a while since i can do such colourful eyeshadows on others. Do you know the eyes are usually the focus of makeup. Just on the eye, we use eyebrow pencil, eye shadow, eye liner, mascara. so fun!
Friday, August 03, 2007
A Large Gaping Hole in the Heart
Thursday, August 02, 2007
Pasta de Waraku
Sorry babe, we did not get to sit by the river and talk even more. Appreciate you being honest about your opinions. There's nothing better than truth. I hate being lied to.
Pictures will be posted!