Thursday, November 30, 2006
Having hope
Despite all the shit at work, I find myself imagining things these days whenever I have the time, like now. I imagine my lifestyle when I retire early. Living in the shophouse along Emerald Hill, driving a Volkswagen beetle, Chanel and Prada become my regular brands, going for fashion shows, haute couture etc. I can slowly slowly picture the life of luxury in my head. It aint easy. I have to be a Crown Ambassador for that sort of lifestyle. That's why I must do it fast. I don't want to enjoy that sort of lifestyle when I am already 40 yrs old!!!
Saturday, November 25, 2006
the EX-factor
It all started with a "hi, how have you been?" which escalate into him replying "yea, just leave me alone"
I'll be more than happy to. I don't need new distractions in my life. I'm just sad that things have to be this way and he can't see this option as a better way for both of us. Should I say he is less mature than me or is he just being who he is? I do not deny the fact that I was probably not the best girlfriend around, neither was I very interested in his ARMY life. Not that I can't go thru hardships with him, it is just that through this so-called hardships of his, not once he spared a thought about our future or me. I find that the saddest truth of all. That's why I made the decision to put an end to a three-year relationship. I don't believe in stability, I believe in things only getting better or worse. Only he is deceiving himself that the relationship was alright when it was filled with unseen, uncared for problems. We were not growing together anymore. It was separate ways, separate mindsets and neither want to give way.
So it is for the best we parted ways. Maybe he'll never be my friend again, maybe one day we can look back and laugh at it. but in the meantime it will take time for wounds to heal.
Goodbye Sean.
I'll be more than happy to. I don't need new distractions in my life. I'm just sad that things have to be this way and he can't see this option as a better way for both of us. Should I say he is less mature than me or is he just being who he is? I do not deny the fact that I was probably not the best girlfriend around, neither was I very interested in his ARMY life. Not that I can't go thru hardships with him, it is just that through this so-called hardships of his, not once he spared a thought about our future or me. I find that the saddest truth of all. That's why I made the decision to put an end to a three-year relationship. I don't believe in stability, I believe in things only getting better or worse. Only he is deceiving himself that the relationship was alright when it was filled with unseen, uncared for problems. We were not growing together anymore. It was separate ways, separate mindsets and neither want to give way.
So it is for the best we parted ways. Maybe he'll never be my friend again, maybe one day we can look back and laugh at it. but in the meantime it will take time for wounds to heal.
Goodbye Sean.
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
When the going gets tough, the tough gets going
Yes, working is tough. In fact I think the whole concept of working is bullsh**, but we all need $$$.
Magnifying the problems does not help. Being afraid does not help. Getting the courage to overcome is essential, because the feeling you'll feel after will give you much drive to move even further. I want to challenge myself.
Wish me luck.
Magnifying the problems does not help. Being afraid does not help. Getting the courage to overcome is essential, because the feeling you'll feel after will give you much drive to move even further. I want to challenge myself.
Wish me luck.
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