Reminiscence

The evening sunset rays from my office window reminds me of my old room in my Tampines flat. I used to sit by the study table which is by the window during my pri sch, sec sch and poly days during the afternoon time between 4 to 7pm. I love that feeling of studying for my sch work, or drawing dresses or simply day dream. It was my favourite time of the day at that particular place where I wished time would stop and I will stop growing up.

Saturday mornings when I was on my way to work, reminds me of those days when I had choir every Saturday mornings where I will take a similar empty bus rides to school from Tampines to Katong. I love the morning walks between 8 - 9pm to school from the bus stop. Love the morning breeze and sunny rays. Everything was easy.

I miss the sec sch tu-tu days where I had my nutella and cheese bfast with Astri, when I wait for her at her bus-stop before we walked to sch together. Then, jin, me, her, weijing and loy love going Parkway to slack, talk conk and visit the library. Sec 2 was my happiest sec sch days. Everything going well, and the friends i made then are still friends with me. My 1st taste of what friends for life means.

I enjoy those afternoons after poly sch days where I got nothing to do, but slack with my friends like Bryan, Yanling, Tash at the nearby Mac. Or tuition at my student's place which is near the stadium and my current workplace. My busy bee days started since then.

Now in retrospect my life is in bits and pieces. Pri Sch, Sec Sch, Poly, Work at Balestier Area with ZhiCheng and Persis, Work in Bishan Area at Bosch, Work at Orchard at Meritus, work at City Hall at RTP, Work now back in Tampines. I am in a place I never planned for myself. At 9, I planned to go Special Stream. At 12, I wanted to go SAP school. At 14, i wanted to be 1st. At 16, i wanted to go Poly to take Hospitality. At 17, i wanted to be 1st again. at 19, I wanted to go Uni. Everything happened not as planned. I ended up in Express stream in SAP school, I got 2nd instead of 1st (both sec 2 and Yr 1 to 3 in poly) I didn't take Hospi, I went CMM. I graduated and went straight into workforce. I went into Hotel industry when I did not find any media or marketing jobs i liked (wanted to go marcom in Hotel, so went into Sales 1st) Ended up now in a company that specialises in software for Hotels. Strange twist of fate. Not within my control.

Now I've even started a business with my friends. And I turn around and realize most of my peers are doing the same or studying uni or just stepped into workforce after graduating from uni. I don't regret the decisions I made. Because those seems to be right at that point in life. Except I want more now. A life I can only dream before. Just means I have to work harder. Time will tell

Princess Leya

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that was me 2 yrs ago. Have I changed?

the EX-factor

It all started with a "hi, how have you been?" which escalate into him replying "yea, just leave me alone"

I'll be more than happy to. I don't need new distractions in my life. I'm just sad that things have to be this way and he can't see this option as a better way for both of us. Should I say he is less mature than me or is he just being who he is? I do not deny the fact that I was probably not the best girlfriend around, neither was I very interested in his ARMY life. Not that I can't go thru hardships with him, it is just that through this so-called hardships of his, not once he spared a thought about our future or me. I find that the saddest truth of all. That's why I made the decision to put an end to a three-year relationship. I don't believe in stability, I believe in things only getting better or worse. Only he is deceiving himself that the relationship was alright when it was filled with unseen, uncared for problems. We were not growing together anymore. It was separate ways, separate mindsets and neither want to give way.

So it is for the best we parted ways. Maybe he'll never be my friend again, maybe one day we can look back and laugh at it. but in the meantime it will take time for wounds to heal.

Goodbye Sean.

It's up and running

I've decided to keep a blog again. So read on for more updates of my life and senseless ramblings!